What will you do next?

I had the perfect evening planned for my kids. That idea is never a set-up for failure, tears and loud cursing.....

I had ordered an outdoor movie projector to show movies on Halloween. It was scheduled to arrive the day before and we were going to give it a test run. The ten year old and I took turns stalking the Amazon delivery guy. We finally heard the truck approach and pushed over each other to swing open the door. The driver looked terrified, placed the box on the ground and backed up slowly - never turning his back to us.

The children gathered excitedly in the tv room which I had painstakingly turned into a comfy theater space in anticipation of this grand event. I unboxed the projector.

And that's where the perfection began to wane.

I followed the instructions for pairing to a device. I re-followed the instructions. I began muttering carefully chosen words under my breath. The first child left the room.

I tried again. I pushed the buttons harder and shook the remote in case it needed a more aggressive approach.

Enter your password. Device should pair.....freakin what the bloody.....the second and third child left the room but not before acquiring the language skills to become a decent sailor or first mate.

I began yelling to an empty room that a dating app might be an easier way to pair this piece of .........breathe Diaz. Breathe.

An hour later the projector sat back in its box. I sat fuming and near tears.

Everything I had planned was ruined.

And it's those moments when you have to ask yourself the question "what will you do next?"

I went to each child's room expecting devasting disappointment but frankly they had all immersed themselves in new things.

I really despise when children are more mature than their parental unit. Seems a bit disrespectful. At least one of them could have had a meltdown in solidarity.

But this is where we find ourselves in life right now. With nothing turning out the way any of us had planned. And no amount of cursing and crying is going to change the situation. And unlike my mindset in that moment - nothing is ruined or permanent. Like my annoyingly amazing children, I needed to step into something new.

So what will you do next?

After my recent hike, I had asked if there were other women who wanted to join me in answering that question for themselves. Discovering what challenge they wanted to step into to push themselves past the reality of the current moment.

And you ladies showed up!!!

So I am creating a private FB group where we can explore that question. A group where women can dream, set goals and then push and cheer each other to reach them.

If you responded that you were interested, I will be sending you a link later today. If you'd like to join - simply comment or message me.

I am keeping the page private because I want women to be able to genuinely share and be authentic. Pain, heartbreak and disappointment are all part of the journey and we need to be able to voice that to get through to the other side.

So I ask you "what will you do next?"

Want to know what I did that night? I ran a hot bath, poured a glass of wine and watched "Schitt's Creek" for the millionth time. It wasn't perfection but it was pretty damn close.